twenty-seven

becoming twenty-seven is so not what i look forward to. why, u ask? hmmm... plenty of reasons. namely, things didn't work out to the way that i've planned. it was the same remark i made on my birthday last year. it reminded me to digi's latest advert: lightning doesn't strike twice. a big AS IF! but, i supposed things happened for a well good reason. maybe the 2 unfortunate events occured were to remind me that there is someone much much better for me out there. just waiting for me to be ready to open up to him. it could be it, rite?

again, i really am thankful to the peeps around me. they have helped me to become the way i am today: older and most importantly, wiser *wink*wink*.

*the birthday cake, the ever fattening choc brownies :P

spontaneous

just got back from an unplanned mini vacation with some of my old buddies from melawati. we were actually attending my cousin's wedding at chemor. after the wedding, one couple from the group were suggesting that we might as well go to cameron highlands since we're in perak. to my suprise, some of us were like, "yeah, why not!" and that includes me, hehehe... there were 9 of us, btw. after i've sort some family matters out, me & one of my friends were on our way to the highlands, while the rest have reached there and enjoying themselves in the cold weather.

*the clan of melawati

exhausted, but really glad that i went through with this spontaneous idea. at least, i've got to eat tonnes of my most favourite fruit - strawberries. heaven! only lack of white & smooth thick cream. or else, it'll be a total indulgence *wink*wink*

so nway, couple of things i've learned this weekend:

1. 
   
   great things happened unexpectedly.
2. 
   
   what we can't share with new friends: childhood memories.

confuse

little miss confuse. that's what i am right now. don't know whether he's the one. or should i wait for a different guy to come knocking the door of my heart? until when? i'm not getting any younger. even though it doesn't really show physically :P, but biologically yes. the clock is ticking like mad, hehehe...

i've shut my heart ages ago. i fear that once i open it, it'll take forever to close if anything happened. i'm not ready. i don't want to be heartbroken again. it hurts like hell. only god knows the pain.

what should i do? i don't want to make the same mistake again. this is not the second time but it's the millionth time. i have to admit. i'm a sucker for a sweet talker. not good, isn't it? have to stop. well, i guess i just have to wait. can't rush. go with the flow. that's what i need to do.

awkward

have u ever been in an awkward situation where u wish u were someone else or u're wearing a mask when it happened? so happen i was in that kind of situation on my way back home today.

u know in the lrt, where there's these 1st class seats (the normal seats) and the 2nd class seats (not exactly seats but the wall where u can actually lean on so u won't be too tired to stand). nway, i was so unfortunate to be in a well-packed coach. this gentleman was trying to be nice to me. he was standing at the wall and seeing me barely standing straight, he offered me to swap places with him. right after i leaned at the wall, people were rushing into the train. to make it worse, that guy was pushed and he almost flatten me at the back. thankfully he was facing the other way round. it will be a series of unfortunate events if only he had stood facing me. but it did looked odd, as if i was hugging him :P. and along the way, there was a long silent and awkward moment until he reached his destination.