record

i've broke my own record, in driving that is. never before i've drove over 8 hours, straight! the longest i've done before was 5 hours. today, i managed to drive to kota bharu by myself, all the way from kl accompanied by my mom and 2 little sisters. it has been a brand new experience for me. exhausting but finally now i know how my dad felt when we were little. it has always been him that drove everytime we went back to kb (my mom drove whenever my dad needed the rest). it must have been worse. u know kids, can't sit still in the car. especially yours truly, hehehe... got car sick everytime travelling by car. that's why i always travelled by air if going back to kb. but now, since i've own a car, i have to be the driver *whateva* :P

so nway, we departed from kl at 7.30am (ish). thank god i'm a morning person. it'll prolly gonna be hard for me to stay awake if i weren't :P. the road was a bit clear, than what we've expected. planned to follow gua musang route. but looking at the high traffic at exit to raub, we've followed the route via kuantan. well, based on experience (comparing to last year), i would say, i'd prefer the latter. a bit expensive though since have to pay toll and the route is farther, but eventually u'll reach the destination stress-free ;). all i need now is a full body massage. the masseur is waiting for me downstairs. later, dude ;)

pending

can't seem to find the time to finish up my work. i can't even seem to find the time to have a proper good night sleep. this month, my days has always been like: woke up at 5am. brush my teeth. sahur. shower. pray. go to work at 6.30am. arrived at the ofc roughly at 7.15am. work till 5 something something. afterwards, it's either went home or broke fast somewhere with mates. arrived home at 10pm. straight to bed. didn't changed to my pj and didn't even took off my lenses & my make-up. bad habit, i know. the dozen newly appeared zits on my face have made me think twice of continuing this nasty routine, hehehe...

back to the subject, i have a lot of pending stuff in my hands. few bills haven't been paid. the breakaway next month haven't been fully planned. baju raya, didn't have time to make a new one. i'll prolly just recycle my grandma's baju, again. i don't mind really. she has a lot of kick-ass, original and cool design clothings. she was a designer back then, when she was younger. she designed most of her attire and sewn some of her own gear. it runs in the blood, by the way hehehe... or maybe, i'll prolly just wear what i have, which i haven't worn during raya. it's such a waste to make a new one, especially for me since i'm NOT a fan of baju kurung, at all! not a pure malay, huh? never have been one, to be honest... guilty! *grin*

*this is what i wore last year: my grandma's classic modern baju kurung ;)

quit

i've quit trying. can't do it anymore. was so miserable. was not comfortable, not a bit. tried so hard but sadly to say i just can't handle this any longer. and i don't want to lie. i've promised to myself that i won't lie anymore. cos by lying i've lost someone that i truly love, the one that i adore with all my heart. it just so unfortunate that this happened. maybe it just not meant to be.

so nway, it felt so good. now i'm not confuse anymore. great, isn't it? *wink*wink*.

friends

friends, they are precious. never take them for granted. no matter what happened, friends are still part of your life. they are always there when you need them. happy or sad moments. friends are the best place for you to share everything. it's true friends come and go. but the memories you share with them remains.

still, there are times where friends can be your enemy. the backstabbers. the cheaters. they can make the worst of you. that's certainly can't be avoided. humans make mistakes. whatever happened, friends are still friends. they can be your worst nightmare. but they gave you the perfect dreams. it's true, isn't it? no matter how cliche it may sounds.

cherish the best moments you have with them. same goes to me. i've been taking friends for granted for quite sometime. i thought being alone is the best idea. it's most definitely not. for the last few weeks, i've started spending a few great quality time with some friends. new and old. it was great. it's the best moments i had since i can remember. i had a good laugh with them. really appreciate the effort. thanks friends.

choose

people say u need to choose someone who loves u instead of someone that u love. but what if u don't have a slight feeling to the person who love u to death? would it be the best idea to accept that certain someone just because he loves u? what about our feelings? would it be fair to us? it wouldn't, rite?

i still don't have the answers. i understand the reason being for the statement was that along the way, u would definitely fell for the person who loves u. obviously he will do just about anything to win ur heart. but what if the feelings gone by the time u've opened up to him. at that time u will most definitely have fallen for him, after all the great stuff n gestures he made. what if he found someone else and dump u? it scares the hell out of me. i fear the heart will be shattered and broken again. oh GOD, please help!