recycle

recycling is good. it makes us appreciate the things we used and currently have for the sake of the future. at the same time, it makes us try the very best to preserve the environment. one way, ditch the car. take the public transport (sadly, still not the best possible way to commute in msia). another way, say NO to plastic bags. bring your own bags when groceries shopping or other related matters.

recyling does not only meant by collecting empty bottles and cans. we can also recycle by re-using the things we actually have. i've started digging up for old stuff, mostly my mom's and grandma's and managed to find some vintage gear, which are superb. they are still in immaculate conditions and i'm actually impress with them since they can still be used and some of them are the things that i can't afford to buy new. cool, huh?

btw, i've found this video on how to be happy: science has answers. really cool video and great tips on how to be happy. do check it out!

battle

the baby sister is still in the battle. the ct scan result is still not out. still waiting for it, anxiously. it's so depressing seeing a 16 year-old girl undergo chemo sessions religously. that's why the big sis is so proud of her. be patient, i know u can do it. u go girl!

anyhow, the big sis and the rest of the clan have taken desperate measures. stop smoking, secondary that is :P. avoid the junk food, but still taking them every now and then though (can't seems to quit, hehehe...). and most importantly, put the guard on to avoid germs, viruses and other potential baddies. shield up!

*little sis, big sis

truth

apparently, someone was kind enough to forward my previous entry on lost to the whole world. i realized i'm a nobody. it's none of my business what some people do with their life. but it was merely my own personal subjective view.

it's so unbelievable that some people can be so immature. that's just unprofessional. i understand my action wasn't either. but no name was ever mentioned. only those who actually the "some people" will get it. was it my fault? i don't think so. just like a malay proverb: siapa makan cili, dia terasa pedasnya, ain't it? truth hurts, rite?

and yeah. youtubing and playing games are part of the job description. i totally forgot!

a piece of advice: GROW UP! this is not a high school. so what if people hated me. i'm NOT trying to win a popularity contest here. but i never meant to hurt anyone, any intention to boast myself or let alone making enemies. i'm just doing my job. i wish others will do theirs too. i just wish people will take responsibility for what they are meant to.

remember, what goes around comes around. i learned it the hard way. so think, deep. u can trust no one. the one u called friend can be ur worst nemesis. they can stab u at back without u realising it. just a friendly reminder to us all, again.

reminisce

it almost christmas. i've been reminiscing the old days. the happiest times of my life when i was away. wish i could turn back time. i miss the christmas shopping, boxing day shopping more like it :P. i miss the weather. i miss the people. and most importantly, i miss my old self, hahaha!!! a cheerful, adventurous and stress-free girl ;). but what in the past stays in the past. i have to move on and look forward for the future. they are more exciting, aren't they? *grin*

nway, i just wish for once to be happy. the best time of my life has gone in the dust. people from the past came to "visit" and left again. some came to ask for forgiveness. and some came to make my day worse. what i did? nothing. i ignored them. easy, right?

*suddenly feel like eating sushi now. haven't had them for months :P.

lost

seems like i'm lost. lost hope. lost respect. thank god the faith is still with me :)

some people. they think having a job means they will get their pay at the end of the month without having to do anything to earn it. allow me to describe a daily schedule of some people and bear in mind office hours is 8.30am-5.30pm and lunch break is from 1-2pm...

almost 9am: just reached the office
9.00am: breakfast time
9.30am: got back to the office. switch on their pc/notebooks
9.35am: chatting while waiting for the pc/notebooks to switch on
10.00am: only about to start doing their work or prolly doing some internet surfing
10.30am: break for a fag
10.45am: back at their workstation
11.30am: another cigarette break
12.30pm: lunch break
2.30pm: back from lunch break
3.00pm: cigarette break
4.00pm: tea time or lounging time
5.00pm: time to go home!

how ridiculous it may sounds, that's the familiar images right here at my office, which made yours truly ended up doing all their tasks. and that's why this superwoman is sick now. fully loaded with kryptonite :P

enough

enough match-making already. family n friends are trying to hook me up with their mates. but all ended up in the dust. most peeps said i'm being choosy. i am not. maybe i'm just not ready. the most important thing is the guy has to be SINGLE & unattached, kind-hearted, funny and charming. can please me without making me annoyed. all the new guys i've met weren't like that. that was the problem. they kept making me felt miserable and disgusted. one bored me out, one a jealous freak and one liked to boast himself as if he's all that. another one always made bad, offensive jokes, one is a stalker and one guy, the one that i hated the most, was a perv. you can't imagine what this guy tried to do on our first day out. it was a disastrous.
anyhow, i'm begging to those who plans to match-make me with anyone, please, oh dear please, find me someone decent. no more the like of freaks and losers. or else, just leave me alone :p or at least try to make sure that guy fits into this charateristics:

1. born between year 1979 and 1982
2. minimum height is 1.7m or at least 5'5"
3. fit but no muscly bits
4. non-smoker and non-drinker
5. pray 5 times a day without delay

not choosy, huh? hahaha!!!

calling

this week i've encountered a couple of things that are related to the calling. the first would be the island breakaway. me and my colleagues just came back from pulau pemanggil, which literally means the "caller island". it was cool. the island is somewhat a virgin island but not so virgin. u know what i meant, rite? :p. it doesn't have that full facilities just like what they have in redang. i quite like that. can still feel the authenticity of an actual island. however, i would say that redang is much more exquisite and better in terms of the coral, the sea and the beach. at pemanggil, especially at where we stayed, there was no beach. my dreams of laying on a lounge chair at the beach still not being fulfilled. well, maybe i just need to ask someone to plan another getaway at another island for me *grin*. start saving up now!

the second thing would be the passing of a friend of my mates. she passed away a couple of days ago. it was so unfortunate for her and the family. she only knew she was sick only a few weeks ago and what suprised us all is that she has a very critical illness and it was actually at the final stage! knowing that you have one of the most feared disease will definitely shocked you, let alone knowing that you only have a few days to live. this event has definitely made us all think how fortunate for us to be able to still breathe the air and and to have the chance to rectify all the wrong things that we have done in our life. in addition, we need to be extra careful in what we eat and do in our everyday life. take extra cautious. remember, put on sunblock. not to stay fair, but to avoid the harmful uv rays, which can lead to skin cancer... *can't believe i can write something this serious :P*

*me and my mates

enemy

i couldn't figure out why the person who used to be my best friend suddenly acted weird as if i were his enemy. it has been over 2 months since the last time we've chatted. and to my suprise, he didn't even say hi to me when i went to his house meeting his sister today. it's like we had never known each other. we've been friends for nearly 10 years for crying out loud. he kinda told me that he has a girlfriend now but give me a break, man! you shouldn't break a friendship just because of a girl. even though eventually you gonna marry that girl and i know this friendship had its ups and downs, but this is just not right.

anyhow, who am i to complain? i'm a nobody. though, i'm still glad for the happy times i had with him. and now, i feel blessed to have the friends who are always there for me. who can cheer me up when i'm down. unfortunate in love but lucky in life. that's more important, ain't it? *wink*wink*

ryan

the travel back to kl from kb was such an adventurous one and yet ryan had been such a doll today. why? u ask. this time around, i took gua musang route since there weren't a lot of traffic on the road. when we were in pahang, my mom told me to take the alternative route since it should be clearer and no traffic lights. so, since i'm not really in the condition to drive (really was sleepy, thank god nothing happened), i just followed my mom's instruction without realising that the fuel is almost gone. i only noticed it once the light started to blink, which means the tank only left approximately 3 or 6 litres (can't remember :P) of petrol, which is roughly 30-60km depends on how fast you go. i was like, "oh my god! where on earth can i find a petrol pump in the middle of nowhere". i was freaking out a bit. the only way i can do was switching off the air conditioner to save some fuel before i can find any gas station. we were sweating like pigs but we had no choice :(.

the meter has read 50km since the light started to blink and we were still 30km away from the next r&r. i said to myself there's no way i'm gonna push ryan in the middle of the highway. to make things worse, the highway is a hilly one. really scared that ryan can't make it. i drove on the emergency lane. and drove less than 60km/h and even slower than those trucks and buses, hehehe...

it was another 200m left when ryan started to slow down. oh, please ryan. don't do this now. i kept praying that we can make it to the petrol pump in time without any embarassment. my wish came true. we made it just in the nick of time. oh, how much i love you ryan ;).

btw, to those who still didn't get it, ryan is my trustworthy myvi. the ever cute black mini mpv. the one and only bf i have, at the mo *wink*wink*. love you to bits!

impress

am really impress with myself. i didn't spend anything for my raya attire. not even a single cent. but i still managed to look really cool during eid. it's something, huh? *grin*. as i mentioned before, i'm not a big fan of baju kurung/kebaya. let alone wearing them. but since it's eid celebration, obviously i have to allow myself to wear them, rite? thank god that i have some baju kebayas, which are still hanging in my closet, untouched.

btw, eid celebration this year wasn't that happening compared to last year. this was because some of my relatives didn't come back to kelantan as this year is the year they are celebrating eid at their spouses' hometown. although, eid this year can still be considered as one of the OK years. to add, i think i'm getting fatter now. please, please stop serving those delectable raya dishes. need to start reducing the food intake! oh so i wish, hehehe...

*with my brothers, sisters & cousins

record

i've broke my own record, in driving that is. never before i've drove over 8 hours, straight! the longest i've done before was 5 hours. today, i managed to drive to kota bharu by myself, all the way from kl accompanied by my mom and 2 little sisters. it has been a brand new experience for me. exhausting but finally now i know how my dad felt when we were little. it has always been him that drove everytime we went back to kb (my mom drove whenever my dad needed the rest). it must have been worse. u know kids, can't sit still in the car. especially yours truly, hehehe... got car sick everytime travelling by car. that's why i always travelled by air if going back to kb. but now, since i've own a car, i have to be the driver *whateva* :P

so nway, we departed from kl at 7.30am (ish). thank god i'm a morning person. it'll prolly gonna be hard for me to stay awake if i weren't :P. the road was a bit clear, than what we've expected. planned to follow gua musang route. but looking at the high traffic at exit to raub, we've followed the route via kuantan. well, based on experience (comparing to last year), i would say, i'd prefer the latter. a bit expensive though since have to pay toll and the route is farther, but eventually u'll reach the destination stress-free ;). all i need now is a full body massage. the masseur is waiting for me downstairs. later, dude ;)

pending

can't seem to find the time to finish up my work. i can't even seem to find the time to have a proper good night sleep. this month, my days has always been like: woke up at 5am. brush my teeth. sahur. shower. pray. go to work at 6.30am. arrived at the ofc roughly at 7.15am. work till 5 something something. afterwards, it's either went home or broke fast somewhere with mates. arrived home at 10pm. straight to bed. didn't changed to my pj and didn't even took off my lenses & my make-up. bad habit, i know. the dozen newly appeared zits on my face have made me think twice of continuing this nasty routine, hehehe...

back to the subject, i have a lot of pending stuff in my hands. few bills haven't been paid. the breakaway next month haven't been fully planned. baju raya, didn't have time to make a new one. i'll prolly just recycle my grandma's baju, again. i don't mind really. she has a lot of kick-ass, original and cool design clothings. she was a designer back then, when she was younger. she designed most of her attire and sewn some of her own gear. it runs in the blood, by the way hehehe... or maybe, i'll prolly just wear what i have, which i haven't worn during raya. it's such a waste to make a new one, especially for me since i'm NOT a fan of baju kurung, at all! not a pure malay, huh? never have been one, to be honest... guilty! *grin*

*this is what i wore last year: my grandma's classic modern baju kurung ;)

quit

i've quit trying. can't do it anymore. was so miserable. was not comfortable, not a bit. tried so hard but sadly to say i just can't handle this any longer. and i don't want to lie. i've promised to myself that i won't lie anymore. cos by lying i've lost someone that i truly love, the one that i adore with all my heart. it just so unfortunate that this happened. maybe it just not meant to be.

so nway, it felt so good. now i'm not confuse anymore. great, isn't it? *wink*wink*.

friends

friends, they are precious. never take them for granted. no matter what happened, friends are still part of your life. they are always there when you need them. happy or sad moments. friends are the best place for you to share everything. it's true friends come and go. but the memories you share with them remains.

still, there are times where friends can be your enemy. the backstabbers. the cheaters. they can make the worst of you. that's certainly can't be avoided. humans make mistakes. whatever happened, friends are still friends. they can be your worst nightmare. but they gave you the perfect dreams. it's true, isn't it? no matter how cliche it may sounds.

cherish the best moments you have with them. same goes to me. i've been taking friends for granted for quite sometime. i thought being alone is the best idea. it's most definitely not. for the last few weeks, i've started spending a few great quality time with some friends. new and old. it was great. it's the best moments i had since i can remember. i had a good laugh with them. really appreciate the effort. thanks friends.

choose

people say u need to choose someone who loves u instead of someone that u love. but what if u don't have a slight feeling to the person who love u to death? would it be the best idea to accept that certain someone just because he loves u? what about our feelings? would it be fair to us? it wouldn't, rite?

i still don't have the answers. i understand the reason being for the statement was that along the way, u would definitely fell for the person who loves u. obviously he will do just about anything to win ur heart. but what if the feelings gone by the time u've opened up to him. at that time u will most definitely have fallen for him, after all the great stuff n gestures he made. what if he found someone else and dump u? it scares the hell out of me. i fear the heart will be shattered and broken again. oh GOD, please help!

twenty-seven

becoming twenty-seven is so not what i look forward to. why, u ask? hmmm... plenty of reasons. namely, things didn't work out to the way that i've planned. it was the same remark i made on my birthday last year. it reminded me to digi's latest advert: lightning doesn't strike twice. a big AS IF! but, i supposed things happened for a well good reason. maybe the 2 unfortunate events occured were to remind me that there is someone much much better for me out there. just waiting for me to be ready to open up to him. it could be it, rite?

again, i really am thankful to the peeps around me. they have helped me to become the way i am today: older and most importantly, wiser *wink*wink*.

*the birthday cake, the ever fattening choc brownies :P

spontaneous

just got back from an unplanned mini vacation with some of my old buddies from melawati. we were actually attending my cousin's wedding at chemor. after the wedding, one couple from the group were suggesting that we might as well go to cameron highlands since we're in perak. to my suprise, some of us were like, "yeah, why not!" and that includes me, hehehe... there were 9 of us, btw. after i've sort some family matters out, me & one of my friends were on our way to the highlands, while the rest have reached there and enjoying themselves in the cold weather.

*the clan of melawati

exhausted, but really glad that i went through with this spontaneous idea. at least, i've got to eat tonnes of my most favourite fruit - strawberries. heaven! only lack of white & smooth thick cream. or else, it'll be a total indulgence *wink*wink*

so nway, couple of things i've learned this weekend:

1. 
   
   great things happened unexpectedly.
2. 
   
   what we can't share with new friends: childhood memories.

confuse

little miss confuse. that's what i am right now. don't know whether he's the one. or should i wait for a different guy to come knocking the door of my heart? until when? i'm not getting any younger. even though it doesn't really show physically :P, but biologically yes. the clock is ticking like mad, hehehe...

i've shut my heart ages ago. i fear that once i open it, it'll take forever to close if anything happened. i'm not ready. i don't want to be heartbroken again. it hurts like hell. only god knows the pain.

what should i do? i don't want to make the same mistake again. this is not the second time but it's the millionth time. i have to admit. i'm a sucker for a sweet talker. not good, isn't it? have to stop. well, i guess i just have to wait. can't rush. go with the flow. that's what i need to do.

awkward

have u ever been in an awkward situation where u wish u were someone else or u're wearing a mask when it happened? so happen i was in that kind of situation on my way back home today.

u know in the lrt, where there's these 1st class seats (the normal seats) and the 2nd class seats (not exactly seats but the wall where u can actually lean on so u won't be too tired to stand). nway, i was so unfortunate to be in a well-packed coach. this gentleman was trying to be nice to me. he was standing at the wall and seeing me barely standing straight, he offered me to swap places with him. right after i leaned at the wall, people were rushing into the train. to make it worse, that guy was pushed and he almost flatten me at the back. thankfully he was facing the other way round. it will be a series of unfortunate events if only he had stood facing me. but it did looked odd, as if i was hugging him :P. and along the way, there was a long silent and awkward moment until he reached his destination.

ended

the long-awaited vacation has ended. i'm now back in town. back to the normal routine. and sadly, i'm back in the office :(.

"how was ur holiday?", some peeps asked. it was great. but should have been way better. why? the modernisation killed the authenticity. money-sucking realtors made the island lost it's originality. prolly i've expected so much from a local island. prolly not. my expectation was merely simple - drinking icy cold coconut with a picturesque view while sitting in a hut or lying on a beach lounge chair. that's it.

but, the mass development at redang ruined the experience. it has now became nothing less than a typical tourists' spot, which i might add as a waste of money and time travelling all the way up there from kl. but, what the heck. at least, i've settled my desideration of going to the beach or an island, which i haven't done so for nearly 10 years :P. and plus, i've got to snorkel, thanks to my uncle n cousin *wink*wink* .

*me and my trustworthy cam ;)

vacation

finally, the day has arrived! i'll be out of town for 5 days. it's unwind time, yeay! no notebook. no phone (will be switched off, of course :P). just me and my psp and 3 cameras. yup, 3! a compact, prosumer & my lovely lomo cam. relaxing and taking pictures, that's what i'm talking about *grin*.

chivalry

is chivalry dead? has it ever existed among malaysian community to begin with? i wonder...

fyi, i've taken the lrt to work since last friday. i have not face any problems so far. but what makes me so irritated is the few men among the lrt passengers. it was a shock seing some men rushed to get to the seats. men were supposed to be courteous towards women. men should give their seats up to women. i know they will definitely say why should they give their seats up to a woman, who is well & healthy, not pregnant or an elderly. but u know what, it's a common courtesy to give your seat up to someone who is weaker than you. unless, those men are weak or wusses. we'll never know now, will we?

so guys, i meant men, if u think u aren't a wimp, please... stop this unchivalrous act. thank you ;)

pet

i wish i had my own pet. anything fluffy will do. a cat or a rabbit.

i have 2 cats when i was in manchester. one was english short-haired, tiger and the other was mixed persian, tom. wasn't mine to begin with. a friend of mine had to let go of his cats since he's broken up with his gf and he has no time to take care of them. he offered his cats to me. but i wasn't really keen to have a pet, and 2 cats to make it worse. told shahrir and he was really excited bout it. so i told my friend that we're willing to take his cats. those two cats were really handsome esp tom, he's mute btw. tiger, the mischief one, looked like felix the cat. he was so naughty and ran away in the end. for tom, he died. i think he was sick. i cried for so many nights, missing him of course. tom always accompanied me whenever i went to the bathroom at nights (u know how scary those winter nights can be, with the wind blowing and all :P). eventually, i grew out of it, hehehe...

now, after almost 3 years of tom passing, i'm thinking of getting a new cat. went to my mom's friend's place the other night. she has a couple of gorgeous persian kittens. i played with one of them. she's so damn cute, sitting quietly on my lap. know what, they are up for sale! RM250 a piece. what a bargain. my god, if only i have my own place, i would most certainly gonna buy one of them at that instant. well, i have to wait, rite?

weddings

i'm not a fan of weddings. not because i envy the people who got married. i don't. i'm happy for them. i always pray may god bless their union. and i don't mind forking out some money to buy them wedding gift. they deserve it. cos i do want to receive great gifts for my wedding too *grin* :P.

i think the reason why i dislike weddings is that i tend to give fake smile. maybe it's because the lengthy event made me so tired of smiling. or maybe because i'm a sociophobia. but then again, maybe not :P. meeting people is good. after all, i've been MIA for ages and i supposed weddings are the right place to meet up some old friends, rite?

nway, just got back from one of my closest friends' wedding. it has been over 11 years since the last time i've met her. really excited seeing her but obviously we can't chat long since she's the queen of the day. can't hold her long :P.

*the newlywed & i

formal

i was commented by my general manager on my writings. fyi, it's not about my blog. god no. i'll be dead if she knows bout this :P.

nway, apparently, she said my writings were too formal, in another word: boring. i do realized that though. i've been trained so well about formality. the way to write, dress, talk, eat, behave and even drive. yeah, i follow all the rules when i'm driving. not that i drive slow. i drive quite fast. but i'm a good driver or what we called in malay - pemandu berhemah. that's who i am. honest :P.

so back to the story. i'm a wet blanket. most people hated me cos they say i'm boring. i'm not. well, not most of the time. i can be funny, exciting and pleasant to be with *grin*. but i guess it's because i'm quiet. i prefer not to talk whenever it's not necessary for me to do so. i prefer to just sit back and do my own thing. but whenever i see the needs for me to speak, then i'll speak. it's because, once i start talking i won't stop. i'm like speed racer. i talked a lot, loud and fast. i mean really really really fast. so think before you make me start. you've been warned, hehehe...

feast

a feast or plain gluttony? u'll be the judge :P.

a friend of mine was kind enough to treat me to a sushi meal. was really excited since i haven't had sushi for months, 5 months to be exact. we had the feast at sakae sushi. i'm so lucky that the friend was so generous to spend some money on yours truly, who is relatively a "stranger". yup, that's rite. we've only knew each other for less than 2 months. still a stranger, huh? hehehe...


nway was a bit shy at first. but seeing california temaki (which contains avocado, i like!) & ebi tempura on the menu and kanikama & tako yaki on the kaiten belt made me reluctant no more to eat as many as i want. how cheeky *grin*.

moving

i've made up my mind. i won't go anywhere as yet. will stay rite here in kl for the time being, until further notice :P. but i will still move, to a new office, that is. our department's office is moving from kelana jaya to jln pantai baharu, which is such a good news for me since it's nearer to my house, yay me! ;)

*my new workstation, still messy though :P

at first i thought taking the lrt to work is a good idea cos i'll save a lot, financially and environmentally. go green girl! ;). at the end, it wasn't really the case as i still need to commute to meetings every now and then, which public transport can't be a good idea. u know how "reliable" the public transports in malaysia can be, huh? then i came across an idea which i guess might be something worth trying: carpooling to the office with my bro, whose office is very near to my building. told him bout it, but he did'nt seem excited bout it. but i'm sure it's still up for further discussion. wish me luck!

run

i guess my friend was right. i always run away from problems. i've never tried to come out with answers to any of my problems. instead of making it better, i'd prefer to run away rather than facing it. i don't know why. prolly it's my nature. i shouldn't. i need to change for the better. running away won't solve anything. it'll make matter worse.

the thought of transferring to kelantan sounds good at this moment. i don't have to think about the hike of the fuel price, since my grandma's place is sooooooooo near to the workplace. i don't have to think about bumping with the ex & etc, etc, etc... but... in a long run, i won't go anywhere. i will stuck there, forever... i can't broaden my knowledge. it'll take me forever to advance, career-wise. i don't want that.

i'm so in need of something to do that will take my mind off things. shopping? i've quit that ages ago. not a self-proclaimed shopaholic any longer. it's good but now i don't have anything to do during my free time. what about jogging? need a mate to do that. i can't possibly jog alone in kl. it was ok to jog by myself when i was in manchester. there was a great park very near to my place. but here in kl, where on earth can i jog without being harassed, or in a lighter word - disturbed. help me, please...

soulmate

stumbled across a song by natasha bedingfield that i haven't heard for quite sometime - soulmate. the lyrics were straight forward but really deep, in my opinion.

incompatible, it don't matter though
cause someone's bound to hear my cry
speak out if you do
you're not easy to find

is it possible mr. loveable
is already in my life?
right in front of me
or maybe you're in disguise

who doesn't long for someone to hold
who knows how to love you without being told
somebody tell me why i'm on my own
if there's a soulmate for everyone

here we are again, circles never end
how do i find the perfect fit
there's enough for everyone
but i'm still waiting in line

most relationships seem so transitory
they're all good but not the permanent one

nway, got this from wikipedia: there's a theory on soulmate by aristophanes in plato's symposium that humans originally were combined of four arms, four legs and a single head made of two faces. however, zeus feared their power and split them all in half and condemning them to spend their lives searching for the other half to complete them.

hmmm... will i ever find my soulmate? i wonder.

please

man, what's up with the world? i don't understand why some people think so negatively when someone finally decided to become good or do anything saintly. for instance, when a thief finally repented his misdeeds. people will definitely said something bad about it. will never believe it. eventually, the former thief will steal again. can't stand the pressure of not being accepted by the public.

people, please. stop it. if someone said that he or she wanted to do good, believe them. give them the support they needed. a gentle advice from yours truly ;)

lucky

love the song :). reminds me how lucky i am to have great friends esp my former fiancé, who was my best friend and was there when life gets hard. who was there to listen to all my problems and was there when i needed a friend. thanks mate. really appreciate it and will definitely cherish everything ;)

jinx

i don't know why, but everytime i plan anything, it will almost 100% not gonna happen. prolly i'm jinx at planning. not that i'm saying i'm not good at planning. i'm great at planning. but prolly i'm not meant to plan anything for myself. or prolly i just meant to sit back and relax, watch other peeps plan things for me, hehehe... *grin*

so nway, what i'm trying to say here is that, everytime i plan anything such as holidays and weddings for myself they will most definitely end up in the bin. so i've made up my mind, i will not involve in any planning. i will hire people to do it for me :)

btw, i've met up with my cousin the other day. we haven't had a proper get-together for months as both of us were busy with work. we had a blast telling our latest stories to each other. and she got a new bf now. i'm so happy for her. really am. really hope it will last ;)

we're planning for an island breakaway. prolly in aug. haven't decided which island. but i will tell myself not to involve in the planning process as i said before, i'm jinx at planning :P. hopefully it will turn out great this time around :D

workaholic

really am grateful that i was offered a job in tm, even though the pay isn't that good (comparing to what i've got when working in manchester). but hey, this is msia, what more can i expect? :P

nway, i do enjoy working here. it's been 9 whole months now. never absent from work except the pre-approved annual leave, which i've taken every now and then. i'm not saying that i'm a workaholic. but i always do the best for what i like and things that i want. and i'm not saying that i love my job. i don't really, to be honest. cos i never like doing sales but don't mind managing sales. but, wait a minute! isn't that what i do now? hehehe... so to summarize, i do love my job, NOT! :P

whatever, just ignore me. i'm talking nonsense. what i need now is a VACATION! i need a break. a full, uninterrupted, peaceful rest. never got it since ever!

wondering

another entry in less than 12 hours. that's a first :P. nway, i just wondering, why on earth is it so hard to forget about someone that you want to forget but easily done for someone that you don't intend to? perhaps you're too attached to that certain someone? or maybe you never actually wanted to do so at the first place? or it could be that you just being plain stupid, never wanted to learn from mistake? we won't know, will we?

hmmm... i'm just being extravagantly emotional rite now. i don't need this. toughen up lady! don't waste your time on something as stupid as this. remember, we all have a bright future ahead of us ;)

nway, have a hard time to sleep tonite. for the past couple of weeks, i went to bed really early. i meant really really early, as early as 8.15pm! maybe the exhaustion from work made me so tired to stay awake. or maybe all my friends were busy with their tasks and no time to go out after work? nahh... that wasn't really the case. 2 main reasons: i'm single & it's the end of the month. you do the math :P

i'm back

hey there, i'm back! well, i was never actually here to begin with :P. now, i think i might want to blog, every now and then. but don't expect i will update this very often. i'll try my best though.

so nway, some peeps kept asking why i've been so quiet for years. yup, years. been MIA for ages. i didn't mean to. it wasn't intentional. but hey, world still exist even i wasn't there, rite? hehehe... here i am. still alive, but chubbier :P

cut the chase. we go straight to the point. so here, summary of my life, during those time that i was claimed to be MIA :P

feb 2000 : start dating ;)
sept 2000 : went to the uk
july 2003 : got my degree from uni of sheffield :)
sept 2003 : got engaged to my bf
oct 2003 : started working in manchester
aug 2004 : took a year off doing nothing :P
oct 2005 : got a job at la senza
aug 2006 : eurotrip 2006 ;)
march 2007 : came back to msia
june 2007 : got a job
july 2007 : broke up with my fiancé
sept 2007 : started working with tm
oct 2007 : found a new guy. planned to get married in feb 2008
jan 2008 : broke up with the new guy
present : single & available but not looking :P

so that's about it. my so-called life. wish it was better. but hey, it's not us who decide our fate, rite? nway, was really fortunate that i still have peeps around me who cares. thanks guys. love u all :D

*the new me after all the dramas *wink*wink*